Tuesday, December 18, 2007

2007 Year in Review

My husband did a year in review so I am going to do the same. The year started off like most Having a grand old time on New Year's day. Heath and I had gone to a party at a friend's and both of us probably had too much too drink but overall a pretty good New Year's. Well pretty much from that day everything got worse. Let me start with the the major event of 2007 my head injury. Long story short, I was walking around my SUV and I slipped on some ice and fell directly on my chin with my arms back. I ended up with a brain bleed, brain contusion, and a severe concussion. Well my health just got worse from there. I was having headaches dizzy spells, and vertigo all the time. I had an MRI in March which I later found out had lesions on it but my moronic neurologist didn't even look at the films himself, he just went by what the radiologist said. 10 months of going to a neurologist that kept saying" its migraines" even though it turned out to be MS.
In September I had enough of my neurologist and I went to my general doctor and told him I wanted a new referral to a neurologist and I wanted an new MRI which my neurologist would not give me even though I had asked several times. My general doctor had me scheduled for an MRI 2 days later and was already trying to find me a new doctor. The lesson that everyone should take from this is: If your doctor is not helping you and won't do what you ask get a new doctor. I wish I would have sooner. After the second MRI which had changed significantly I was told it was supicious of MS. I had to have a LP to confirm the diagnosis. My diagnosis was confirmed on October 10, 2007 I have MS. I am now on Avonex and trying to deal with my bad days.
All I can really say is this year pretty much sucked. I know that I am not being very positive but being diagnosed with a disease like MS is not fun. Yeah there were good things that happened during the year but overall I am going to say this wasn't a good year. I am hoping next year will be better. The year ends in 8 so already its better than ending in a 7. Seven is not a lucky number for me. Well that's all I am going to say for now about 2007.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

A lot of Good days, One Bad Day and Reflecting on life

Today was a very good day. Heath and I helped out 2 kids who don't have very much. At the bank there was an angel tree with children's names that needed things like clothes and shoes. What we got them was the only thing they would get for Christmas. We had a 7 year old girl and a 4 year old boy. We bought them clothes and toys. It felt so good to give gifts to children that had very little. It was so fun to pick little outfits out for the girl and the boy. We also got them some toys. Since I can't have children it was so fun to shop for a child.

Tonight was my company Christmas party. We went to Little America Restaurant in Salt Lake City. They had really good food. The President of my company came out, we all got gift cards to Walmart and then we each got to draw an envelope. I got another gift card to Home Depot. All and all a really good night.

I have been doing pretty well trying to have a better attitude. I am trying to stay as positive as possible. The week went really well up until Thursday. I have been feeling pretty good overall. Thursday came along and I had vertigo and felt nauseated all day long. Work and school were very difficult. I couldn't keep my eyes open in class because the room was spinning so bad. I actually ended up falling asleep because of the vertigo. I came back to work and just tried to make it through the rest of the day. I left at 4pm. When I got home I just went to sleep. I felt much better on Friday.

I had a lot of good days this week and only one bad one. In staying with my positive attitude, I am really lucky I only had one bad day this week. One bad day in 7 is not bad. Hopefully I won't have any bad days next week, but if I do I need to always look at the positive I only had one bad day not 7. I am going to try and write all the positive things that happen to me on a daily or weekly basis, because it will keep things in perspective for me. I am a very lucky person, I know there are people out there who have more bad days then good who have this disease. I am very lucky because my good days out number my bad days. Hopefully they always will, but if the tide turns I will still look at what was good about my bad days because having a positive attitude is the only way to approach this disease. Before I was diagnosed I had a very negative attitude about a lot of things, so one good thing about having this disease is I am learning to have a better attitude about everything.

Having MS has changed a lot of things in my life, I have to have a shot every week, I usually spend Sunday's sleeping most of the day, I have days where my head hurts all day long, but I am not going to let that keep me from doing the things I want to do in my life. Yes things in my life are different then they were a year ago but that's ok. I have a good life even with this disease. I have a wonderful, supportive husband, a great job, and friends and family who love and care about me. I definitely didn't want this disease, but I have it and I can't change that, so I am going to make the best of it by staying positive and living life to the fullest.

Monday, December 3, 2007

Trying To Have a Better Attitude

This week I realized I was having a really bad attitude about everything. Heath and I went to Oregon and it didn't go the way I hoped. We got back and I went to my Doctor's appointment and he didn't really give me good news. He basically told me these are my good days with the headaches and all the other fun symptoms I am having. The lesions I have now have created a lot of damage and its permanent. This as good as I am going to feel. Well hearing that really didn't put me in a positive state of mind. So I wasn't having a positive attitude, which I need to have with this disease.

The Doctor also gave me another prescription to try. I haven't filled it yet because I am sick of dealing with side effects. I am going to fill it this weekend. He told me to take it a Friday or Saturday night so I don't have to go to work dealing with the side effects.

My goal this week is to stay positive and not look at the negative of everything like I did last week. The week is starting out well; I have to have my ingrown toenail removed, but I can find a positive in that it won't hurt anymore. Also because of the appointment I got to leave work at 3pm. They couldn't do it today because the instruments weren't sterilized so I got home at 4:20. It was nice to get home early. I was also able to get $38 out of my apartment complex because they overcharged us. There is several positive things about this week. Also my company Christmas party is on Saturday night which means a bonus and a free meal. Another positive thing to look forward to. That's it for now, off to soak my toe again....